So I'm sitting here contemplating life in general.
Went to a couple of concerts last night, and then hung out with my best friend until two or three in the morning. I think I'm starting to fall for him a little... but I just have a hard time seeing him in that light.
I'm a pretty fucked up person in general. I feel like I have been doing nothing but failing at life recently. The temptation to start doing some hard stuff is more than I can handle right now. But I'm holding off because, well, it's just kind of too dumb for me to start off on.
You know what's tempting right now? Start hooking up with a girl. I mean, like OK. I've made out with plenty of girls at parties when I'm drunk and just totally riding the booze train but to actually get involved with a girl is something else completely. It's strange how I have no inhibitions in that department... I do like men... loved a man even. But how do I know if I will like something I've never done? Maybe I should just try it? No?
Well... the counter argument would be that I would totally be using someone... but what if that someone doesn't mind?
Well, friend just called wanting coffee... he sounds out of breath and... well, hopefully everything's all right.
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