As callous as this seems, I think I really am over him.
The complications in this little affair are just a little too much for me to handle. I can't deal with the annoying mess with his girlfriend and as much as I do care for him, it's just too much.
He tried to ask me out to a proper date yesterday...
I tried to break it off with him today.
I told him I'm over it, that I want us to stop doing what we are doing. He simply refused to acknowledge it as a course of action. Being the wimp that I am, I simply gave up and decided not to pursue it.
My mind's made up though, I don't want to be in this pseudo-relationship anymore. In my mind I keep playing over the things I want to say... I want to tell him I do love him, but I can never commit to him. That I'm used to having my own space and he's intruding, and that he's interfering with my studies and my social life...
This all sounds so harsh, but in my mind, I can't imagine any other way out of this mess
Tonight, we are having a small housewarming with two or three dozen people. Hopefully, it'll stay under control this time.
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