They were the songs that played in my car in high school, the songs that I danced and screamed and laughed to. Their first album was my cocaine and nectar, it nourished and drained me at the same time. I ran to "Harder to Breathe", cried to "She Will Be Loved", fell in love to "Woman" and left Seattle with "Must Get Out" playing on repeat on my IPod. Ok, "Woman" was actually from the Spiderman 2 soundtrack, but all the same...
Sadly, I wasn't so much a fan of their second album... Over the last two years, my love gradually faded until Songs About Jane became little more than a bittersweet memory of my adolescent years.
Hands All Over came out at the perfect time.
Let me tell you what I was doing on September 22, 2010, the day that the album dropped.
...or rather who.
My best friend.
Terrifyingly, our hookup has exploded into a full blown affair. We couldn't seem to separate from one another. We spend every night together with our hands all over each other. Sitting in class, I'm thinking of the way he touched me and the way his lips felt against my neck, my hair, my stomach... I feel like I could hardly concentrate on anything else anymore. Tonight is the first night I have had alone, and I am sitting in my giant Queen sized bed feeling out of place... almost as if part of the bed went missing. On one hand, I need to sleep... and no way that's going to happen with him here. On the other hand, I am missing his touch and his kisses and his voice. It's enough to drive me completely insane.
The terrible thing is that he has yet to break up with his girl friend, who he's being dating for almost seven months. Honestly, I'm not sure if I want him to. Afterall, though I love being with him, I seriously doubt my ability to actually commit to him. I know myself well, and the me I know is terrified by relationships in general.
Some photos from my week:
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| Writing with a cappuccino at my favorite neighborhood cafe: Bluebird |
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| Cooper Square at night |
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| Cooper Square, Statue of Cooper! |
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| San Genaro's float passing by the Whole Foods window |
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| Reading for one of my 300 level econ classes |
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